limelife
"Man was born free, and he is everywhere in chains." - Rousseau
ruled by the heart, controlled by the brain?
seems i'm on a rollercoaster of highs and lows these last few days. I havnt felt this out of it in almost a year. Things had been so good, nothing was going wrong, and i was making decisions with my head? so what the hell happened? i dont wanna slip back to where i was, not ever again, i need to know and have faith in myself, but its almost as those in some areas my confidence is slipping away, even though i know and am confident in my work. Life has a messed up way of mixing you up. When i finally get school done, and get the opportunity to visit "ozzie" and the UK ...i'll get my chance for a clean sweep i guess...it'll be my do over. I wonder how many do overs are people really allowed to have...i've tried starting fresh before but something always happens to wreck it...i happen, they happen, it happens. self explaintory actually.
travling has been something i've craved since i was 16, and did all the moving of my teenage years on my own. 5 provinces in 4 years, is not bad, I've seen enough that i should know better, and i should be young enough not to care so much, but i want my life to stand for something more then just the every day routine bullshit and the fuckups of life. I made a big mistake just 2 days ago, and its left everything in my "social" life a little mess of dredged up carniage. The emotions that it brought about was something i wasnt in the presence of mind to handle so instead i reached out...and you know what? the best help i got, the best advice, the most heartfelt, the strongest words camew from someone who i only know from the computer...not someone who sees me everyday, not someone who knew what my facial expression would show..someone who know how i was feeling with just the written word and said exactly what was needed, even if it wasnt what i wanted to hear, it was what i needed to hear, and when you know someone who can do that...you are truly blessed that they understand you, or at least humanity enough to know, deep down what will settle your soul, stop the ache even if its only momentarily.
travling has been something i've craved since i was 16, and did all the moving of my teenage years on my own. 5 provinces in 4 years, is not bad, I've seen enough that i should know better, and i should be young enough not to care so much, but i want my life to stand for something more then just the every day routine bullshit and the fuckups of life. I made a big mistake just 2 days ago, and its left everything in my "social" life a little mess of dredged up carniage. The emotions that it brought about was something i wasnt in the presence of mind to handle so instead i reached out...and you know what? the best help i got, the best advice, the most heartfelt, the strongest words camew from someone who i only know from the computer...not someone who sees me everyday, not someone who knew what my facial expression would show..someone who know how i was feeling with just the written word and said exactly what was needed, even if it wasnt what i wanted to hear, it was what i needed to hear, and when you know someone who can do that...you are truly blessed that they understand you, or at least humanity enough to know, deep down what will settle your soul, stop the ache even if its only momentarily.
No changes - waiting on the world to change
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