"Man was born free, and he is everywhere in chains." - Rousseau

Todays really good day, just turned into a pity feast for myself. After whining and crying I figure there's nothing I can do to change it. So feel free to analyis this..the reminants of my old career..and the passing over of my own stupidty.
This is a letter from my instructor, that i read about 15 minutes ago.

Hi Julie,

I was phoning around checking on how all your OJT placements were going and
spoke to Bill Lundrigan. He requested a meeting with me, and I'm going to meet
with him next Wednesday.

Bill indicated there was a problem with spelling, but I'm not entirely sure why
he wants to meet with me.

I was wondering if they provided you with much support in terms of editing while
you were there, or were you left on your own?

I was also wondering if you told them about your learning disability. If not,
would you mind if I explained the situation?

If your experience wasn't great there, don't let it get you down. You're an
intelligent, multi-talented student. We just need to find some strategy to deal
with the spelling issue. Hope you are okay. Looking forward to seeing you in the
fall. Take care.

Frank


This is my response...all i can say really.

Hi Frank,
I'm not exactly sure why Bill wants to meet with you. The experience was good, or at least I had thought so. I had no support in editing. The only thing edited before I handed him a copy to view was a letter that I had to write from the president. There were also 4 other work term students in the small building, 2 business, and 2 office. It got a little crowed, and with only access to 3 computers, where the network wasn’t stable became difficult to complete the things I needed. However I put in extra hours to complete there newsletter without any editing or even real input from anyone there. I had very little to go by, but I take full responsibility for the mistakes in the newsletter, however Bill was also informed that any corrections that were need, I would be more then happy to do. Right now I am feeling very dejected about the whole thing, that he didn’t approach me himself to voice any concerns.
They are nice people, and it was a good work term for the most part. At least from my point of view, I showed up on time, did the work requested, you've seen how I work with the paper, it was much the same. you do as much as you can. I know I have problems with spelling and such and I take responsibility for not be capable of doing the work to the standard that they had expected.
No, I have not told them about my learning disability, I had not thought it would be a large factor when I started the work term, I was not under the impression I would be responsible for a 12 page newsletter, layout, photos, selling the ad's writing all of the content as well as doing my own editing. Judy, whom I thought was supposed to work with me, spent little to no time, helping me in any regards to the newsletter or its content. I designed ad's, I layout them out, I sold them to their members; I was responsible for the whole package on my own. I've had about 5 -8 (mini) 5 minute meetings with Bill where he looked at the general layout, never really read anything, and addressed concerns about how many copies would be necessary and that sort of thing.
When I finished my work term I was not under the impression that there were any great problems with my work, or my time there. It there was I greatly apologize. Up until reading this e-mail I wasn’t down about the experience at all, I’ve met some great people working there, as well as made contacts with people do to my networking at luncheons, and phone calls regarding various things. Including spending my first 2 full days there making phone calls to over 200 members as a pre reminder of a luncheon, another thing I had no idea I was going to be responsible for.
The experience has left me feeling a lot less tentative about phone people, for interviews and that. It has also made me more comfortable dealing with people in a "semi business setting" so if nothing else I’ve walked away from it with that.
I don’t know what I can do to work on the spelling issue, I’ve never been good at it, and I wouldn’t even go to half as far as saying it’s my disabilities fault, spelling has always been a obstacle for me, and it continues to be.
By the way, if you could fax of have them fill out a copy of my evaluation form for my work term that would be great. Fax #'s 634-9710, and 639-9142. They occasionally have problems receiving from the first fax number.
Anyhow, Take care.
Juli.


I've already decided to study something else, I knew i didnt want to be a journalist, so why the hell does this hurt so bad?